This is Me
Why do I love to be disliked , hated and looked down of me by others
I tried to analyze this :
I need excitement and any excitement to stay out of “ennui” : a feeling of listlessness and dissatisfaction arising from lack of occupation or excitement.
I “like” to be disliked and hated because it gives to some extent “thrill” or “high”.
From childhood , I was being ridiculed , punished and this has creeped as a part of my personality and an element of sadism.
I have realized that my Innate satisfaction come from my sense of self-sufficiency despite being disliked , hated . I am uneasy , when people appreciate me . I love to be stay in my mental cocoon with my own vagaries ,
My sense of worth doesn't come from other people although I strive hard to emulate them - do copy and paste only to make myself gratified in my own yardstick
I also find enjoyable that I make people powerless to take that pleasure away from me despite me being disliked and hated .
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